Legend Of Lup

   Bad luck again? Maybe yes maybe no.. I received an offer letter from a University.. and why does it hav to be UMS? Sabah.. its just a little bit too far from my house.. sob sob.. across the ocean! But luckily there’s a few of my frens who are going to sabah too. Li Ting, Shu Lim, Loong Ping, Bing Xiang and Prasanth.

   I got the shock of my life when my friend told me that my campus is at Labuan.. If it was real, I would be alone!! I was quite depressed for a few days until Shu Lim double-checked for me that I’m going to Kota Kinabalu. I straight shouted YESSSSSSSSS!!!!!! in my heart.. hehe.. so no 1 was shocked by my voice.

   Yeap.. i will be going to Sabah on the 29th June. So early! Coz we were not able to book a flight tickets. Anyway, we decided to stay at a hotel for 2 days before going to register on the 1st of July. I just felt a little bit sad because i hav to leave.. Not because of the life style change, not because of the time zone, nor because of leaving home.. I felt sad because I hav to leave my friends!! Well.. my frens had been very supportive and helpful.. The laughters, the sadness that we share all this while.. I hope that they will cherish it as much as I do.. I hereby would like to say ARIGATOU, THANK YOU very much to my best frens(in no particular orders), Taw Jin, Yuen Cheong, Wei Yuen, Ernest, Saha and Collins for being there when I need them. I will certainly be missing u all.. There are other frens too but its too long to list out. Hope u all do not mind.

Maybe venturing to Sabah would make be a different person and hopefully I would be able to forget all the bad and sad things that happened before and be able to move on with my life.. Until then, take care my frens and keep in touch. (thanks for the final fantasy X2 pencil box)

   Emm.. bad luck and more bad luck.. Today my computer crashed.. Terkena virus actually, can’t enter windows! Wat the crap.. Later I hav to format my computer. I spent dunno how many hours trying to "neutralize" the "monster" but unable.. So, only 1 thing left to battle the stubborn "monster".. that is to reformat! Mega Blast!! Zap zap~~ Enemy eliminated! Victory! I was quite happy but then i hav to install back everything inside again.. Futhermore, most of my songs and pictures r now gone!

   I was happy for a moment but only to know that my sound & modem driver rosak liao.. So my computer dun hav sound and internet access…. sob sob…. I was quite angry coz i was doing it all night long just to know that i can’t complete it.. I later slept around 5am with a heavy heart.. My computer is still incomplete when i’m writting this blog.. I writting this using my fren’s computer.. Hmm…. guess I hav to send it to the computer repair shop….

Emm.. i hav become fond of SUM 41’s songs nowadays.. So don’t be surprised when u saw me walking around with a big headphone! Haha.. Hope nobody will say i looked like an idiot, hehe.. Here’s one of their nice song, its a punk rock band so dun expect soft song. It’s called there’s no solution.. Enjoy!

Maybe nothing else will ever be so clear
Or maybe that’s only my fear
If just for one day I wish I could disappear
Just take me far from here
Maybe I’d find out nothing new
Maybe I’d end up just like you

There’s no solution (no solution)
Give me truth to my conviction
Is my own confusion (my confusion)
Reality or fiction
Am I out of my mind?

The constant pressure that keeps hanging over me (hanging over me)
It makes me feel so empty
It’s more than anything that I could ever be (I could ever be)
What else could you take from me
It’s getting harder to relate
Don’t want to make the same mistakes

There’s no solution (no solution)
Give me truth to my conviction
Is my own confusion (my confusion)
Reality or fiction
Am I out of my mind?

It took me so long to find out it’s right
There in front of me
Too close to see
What I thought was true
I see right through what’s killing you

There’s no solution (I can see)
Give me truth to my conviction
Is my own confusion (that I feel)
Reality or fiction
Am I out of my mind?

So maybe nothing else will ever be so clear
Or maybe that’s only my fear (Am I out of my mind?)
If just for one day I wish I could disappear
Just take me far from here (Am I out of my mind?)

   After going up the hill by cable car, we came back down and headed to the beach, Cenang beach! The moment we arrived at the beach, i couldn’t take it anymore.. I just laid down on the beach coz i was too tired… (remember that I can’t sleep the night before - refer part 1).

Chee Kong suddenly took my pic after i laid down, this is the result

Emm, my quite refreshing after laying down

Wow, my hair is white too (free dye)

   Later, everyone played at the beach, splashing water, running around just like small kid.. hehe.. Then me and Sok Fong decided to jog along the beach! Its crazy! The beach is so long, i can just barely make it.. haha.. After the fun at the beach, we walked to a restaurant for dinner. Along the way, Yuen Cheong was able to catch a small crab and he put it inside his mentos box.. emm..

   We hav a hearty meal at a restaurant ( i forgot the name). Later, we wanted to go to Kuah town to shop. Wahaha and I got to drive there! It was my first time driving at night.. It was quite scary because along the way there was no street light.. Quite drama oso when i drove.. I dun even know how to turn on the high light and SF hav to help me turning it on and off while i scared the passenger.. i even hold up 8 cars behind me… Luckily no accident and every1 was safe! Haha…

   At Kuah town, some shopped for chocolates and some already scanning and comparing the prices.. I did not buy anything the 1st day though. Then we headed back to the hotel not daring to drive coz no street light.. Tj took over. At the hotel, we took turn to bath and we all had fun chatting. Took a midnight walk and when i came back, every1 was asleep.. I rang the bell and i called them.. all slept like dead-pig =p Finally YC woke up and opened the door for me.. Thank god, if not i will hav to spent the whole day outside.. Slept at KK’s room at 1st but i couldn’t take it coz a few ppl was snoring.. hehe.. I hav to change room then.. Slept nicely until the next day.. "LUP KEE", "WAKE UP WAKE UP"! ( to be continued )

I hav been listening to this song for a few days now. This song reflected my mood for this few days and maybe a few weeks ahead too. Its called Pieces by SUM 41. Download it and listen to my feelings..

I tried to be perfect
But nothing was worth it
I don't believe it makes me real
I thought it'd be easy
But no one believes me
I meant all the things I said

If you believe it's in my soul
I'd say all the words that I know
Just to see if it would show
That I'm trying to let you know
That I'm better off on my own

This place is so empty
My thoughts are so tempting
I don't know how it got so bad
Sometimes it's so crazy
That nothing can save me
But it's the only thing that I have

If you believe it's in my soul
I'd say all the words that I know
Just to see if it would show
That I'm trying to let you know
That I'm better off on my own

On my own

I tried to be perfect
It just wasn't worth it
Nothing could ever be so wrong
It's hard to believe me
It never gets easy
I guess I knew that all along


If you believe it's in my soul
I'd say all the words that I know
Just to see if it would show
That I'm trying to let you know
That I'm better off on my own